backwardness

Now it's the time of dealing with confusion. This strange feeling has been formed slowly but then all these unriddled issues are piled. Now they have become great enormous stacks that need to be solved. You see the stack that is piling in front of your eyes but you are just too lazy and too incapable of doing something. You need to do this and you need to do that but ... backward. You say tomorrow I'll deal with this issues. I will solve them out and get enough time to do other things. But it doesn't got that way, does it?

For example: Let's say that I need to read a book for a school project (unfortunately this is a fact). You have been given two weeks to read a book. The idea itself isn't difficult. You say. I'll read at least 20 pages a day or a chapter a day... Then the book is read and I'm ready and I don't have to stress about it anymore.
You read the first 20 pages and then what? You through the book at the corner and say "later"... Then you'll forget about that book. Your subconscious reminds you about that book but you pull that idea away and say "tomorrow"... It stresses you a bit... Days go by... then the first week. Then you remember that book. You say that you need to read it but after all you'll start reading it about 72 hours before the deadline and you finish it two minutes before the teacher asks you about the book.
This happens to me. Everytime.

When you need to do something but ...

These days I have a big thing going on. In these days I must make some choices that will affect my future and my career. I need to choose what I want to study next year(the courses) and finally decide which subjects I'm gonna study for the finals. Yeah, I do have the major idea going on.. BUT... We have a course limit and we can't take more than the limit. Now I've though that I will take more science and drama. I have four languages... too much .. must take something off but can't decide what.. and I have about 12 hours left... BACKWARDNESS

Otherwise it's been a great day. I learned a great deal of things today. In psychology I learned more about children's development and was surprised of how many things in your mental developing are depending on your biological base!! Then I learned the rules of Finnish language's commas..
Wohoo.. anyway and we shall not forget about the personal and private stuff..

and I'm too backward to correct my mistakes I've done...