The feeling of failure. The feeling of not getting something that you NEED.. not something you just want. The feeling when you feel that you have the worst luck... that you are the unluckiest person in the world. When you are waiting for something so much, so hard.. and you are not getting it. When you pray for getting something and though you think and you are sure that you have achieved it with all that hard work and waiting.. you don't. That moment's biggest wish doesn't become true. Feeling blue. Confused. And a fear that something stupid and unwanted will happen... That my heart will get broken. I'm afraid that I will see the scene which is my worst fear right now.
Maybe I shouldn't be so stressed about this... but can't help it..
These feelings I hate. Right now I'm feeling all those. I know I sound stupid and very ansty but can't help my feelings. I hope tomorrow I feel better.
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Yeah, shit happens sometimes... And I know EXACTLY how you feel right now. There come better days and a bit worse days and you are having the worse one now. Perhaps you'll notice some day that you've really achieved that you wanted. I hope you will. It would be really really unfair if you didn't, because to love someone and love each other is not the same thing... Not at all.. And the first one is usually awful situation, unles you want to just watch aside... I decided to forget about him. I know, I can get him, there's not even a possibility. Keep in touch with him a little bit more would be killing. So better to not talk with him. ^^
oh damn those typos ...o_O horrible.
: an awful situation, I never can...
Ermmm, yeah... I could eat my fuckin head right now :D How can someone be like that??? So damn adorable!!! Aaaaoff....!! Fuck's sake... He still talks with me... Are you having any idea what he might think? I can't think sensible. Be honest.
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