2008

Again a long period without writtin anything.. again it can be explained by a friend who came from Greece for the Christmas holidays. Though I didn't write I had many days and times I wanted to write to this blog (though unlikely no one would read it). Different issues and topics came to my mind... but I had a friend next to me 24/7 and that makes some things more difficult. We had a great time. We did lot of things like we went to Turku and Helsinki and saw different things.. but I think summer would have been better.. warm.. In summer you don't have to go outside and feel so cold.. in summer you can see more places and have enough courage to go a little bit farer 'cause in winter it's impossible.. in winter in Helsinki you can only run from one shop to the other cause outside it's so cold that if you went for example to Kaivopuisto you would freeze on your way. Thinkin that we almost died when we were going from the railway station to the Tuomiokirkko.. and that's about 500 metres.
I planned that we would be more with friends while she would be here.. but in the end we only person that was willing to see us was Johanna. We spent the New Year at Johanna's home and we had such a great time .. really..!! I have never had so much fun in Finland at such time. So I think that the New Year was a succees.

Anyway.. Now my friend is gone... It feel kind of strange 'cause I got used havin a friend with me everywhere I got for two weeks, speakin Greek and have more things to do. When she left I felt empty and sad cause I was alone again.. and I knew that I had to go back home to mum, soon go to school( though it has its own goods ;) ) and I would be alone again and I wouldn't have anyone here next by me to talk to when I needed to... It doesn't mean that I don't have anyone to talk to. I have.. but very few. To mum I feel I can't talk about everythin. She wouldn't understand all of them but only the usual simple ones. To those few I can talk to.. i can really say everything... straightly how the world sucks and how I hate livin in Finland. I could never say these things to mum or to my sister.

School start on Monday. I wish I could go back and relive this holiday without anyone. I feel tired.. like I didn't really rest though it was a fortnight holiday. I didn't sleep well and feel mentally exhausted as well. Maybe when the days get brighter and nature will Bloom again I'll feel better and more alive.
I hope I'll go to Greece in February cause I really need to see dad... AND TURBONEGRO IS COMIN TO FINLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!And the best part is that I'm not goin alone.. Johanna promised to come with me.. I'm really really thankful.