The Future

9 years, ... 7 years ...5 years... 3 years left. Three years.. Three years and I will be free! I have been waiting for six bloody years and two thirds of the trip is done. I have school almost 2½ years left and then I will leave Finland forever. I will visit Finland but I'll never live in this country again. I want to go somewhere else.. Far away .. Maybe back to Greece or to England. I really don't know yet... I have thought of going to England first .. Study there and make a career and when I'm ready and I have a fine occupation I could go back to Greece.

I want to leave now. Sometimes being patience is frustating but I'm trying to be positive and optimistic because I know the future will be better and there's going to be more filling in it. I think about the future everyday .. I make plans, change plans or even make whole new plans and forget the old ones... But now I have a nice idea what I want the future to be like and what I want to do but dreams can change... so can life.
I have few friends who wait until they can turn away from their present lifes and make a new ones somewhere else in the world. All of us have thought going to England and start there... but no one knows maybe some of us will start somewhere else.
I like being young .. I really do and I don't want to grow up too fast and be less adolescent everyday but I know that growing up is the easiest and the fastest way to make a difference.

I really don't hate Finland. I just don't like it. First when I moved to Finland I hated almost every single thing that had to do with Finland. For example the forests or the lakes... If Finland played a game against some other country I would be with the other side.. Against Finland. Years have passed now and life is looking better. I don't hate Finland and when Finland is playing against someone .. I'm on Finland's side.. (expect Greece, UK etc..) and usually it is Sweden or USA... Years ago I wasn't proud of Finland. If Finland did somethin good I never felt any little tiny touch of proudness in me like I felt when Greece did something.

Sometimes I think what would have happened if I was still living in Greece.. Would I want to leave? Would I want to study abroad or live in some other country? Would I have the same dreams?
I really don't know. Sometimes I think that I wouldn't have wanted but sometimes I think otherwise. But one thing I'm sure.. I would never have wanted to live in Finland. Never. I just don't fit in here. The people are different ... The culture is sometimes so strange. No.

All in all I'm happy now. I don't want to grow too fast and I want to enjoy my younger years. I'm waiting for the future and hoping that nothing dramatic will happen so I can live a wonderful life when I'm ready. When I'm free to spread my wings and fly to the horizon...