when you can't have everything

Should I be happy now? I have a diary but I haven't used it after I came from Greece more than one month ago. I promised that the diary would be full by summer but it seems to be a lie. Some time ago I liked to write. Even writting some stupid daubs were fun and they gave inspiration to write even more. What has happened? Lately I think I've done nothing. Complaining about the lack of time though I do nothing. When was the last time I wrote a long text? Loooong time ago. I say school takes a lot of time... but I don't really do my homework every day. I don't seem to sit in front of the telly either. It's strange.
Right now I should be in my room studying psychology but hey, I sit in front of the pc and try to spend my time by doing nothing. I've made some improvement though. I've cancelled my accounts in some sites. I don't really remember what used to do in the web. There are few sites that I visit almost daily but they are starting to be boring and I've forgotten some of them. I really don't know how to spend my time here though.

Today would be the legendery concert I had been waiting for sooo long time. Turbonegro's concert in Tampere.. A whole bloody concert with one of the best bands in the whole fucking world! Wow!! But I forgot that my luck isn't the best so of course nothing goes perfectly... Turbonegro's guitarist gets seriously ill just before the tour. Perfect! The whole tour in Europe is now cancelled... and US's as well. Ok, I understand. Of course I want the guitarist's best and I hope he gets better soon and will be ready to go on stage but... Just pissing.
Again if the concert hadn't been cancelled I wouldn't have been able to buy Sex Pistols' concert's tickets (that came out today). Yeah!! They are coming to Finland!! Sooo awsome!! I really didn't believe this day would come that I could say "Hey! I'm gonna see Sex Pistols live very soon!!" but sometimes people are lucky. Though... you never know.. who lives until the end of summer but again can this go even worse so the Pistols' concert would get cancelled..?? That'd be really really rotten luck. Seeing your favourite band live has to be a great feeling... Maybe one of the best feelings ever.

So now if you think the quote "Everything happens for a reason" ... now I might even believe it. Really if Turbonegro had come to Finland I wouldn't have had enough money to go to the Pistols' concert. So in a way I'm glad they didn't come... but again.. They are the world's second best band... It's kind of comlicated but again it's as clear as it could be... I'm sad that Turbonegro isn't coming but I'm glad that Sex Pistols are -- You can't have everything!